"...Failure is giving up on yourself."

Trying to get back on track (for the 3rd or 4th time now)

People at work keep telling me I look like I’ve lost weight, but I haven’t worked out in 2 weeks (until today). I think if I’m losing anything its because I’ve been too broke to afford food, and that isn’t the kind of weight I want to lose.

So I weighed in today, 149.2. which is 3 pounds lighter than my last weigh in, but I don’t feel like I can even be proud of it.

Today I’m trying week 5 for the 3rd time, I’ve been doing 1 or 2 workouts a week from it, so if I make it through a full week I’ll move on to workouts 7 and 8 finally next week..which would be the farthest I’ve ever made it. I’m so horrible at sticking to workout plans =[

But the point is that I’m trying! My goal is be at least 145 before I go home for Thanksgiving break, if I really try I think I can do it. Then again, I can slowly feel pms creeping up on me, which will mean horrible things for my snack control. We’ll see, who knows.

Everyone keep working and be proud of yourself, if you have the will power to stick to the full plan every day, I am very jealous of you. I have yet to make it past a month and a half straight. 

Hi new followers! :)

I’ll warn you- I tend to be very inconsistent with this, but I’m trying my best. Sometimes full time school and two part time jobs take over my life, and all free time is devoted to naps. 

But what you can look forward to is positivity about health, fitness, and weight loss. “Fat” is considered the f-word here (but feel free to say fuck all you’d like, healthy stress release!) 

My overall goal is to feel great about myself in all aspects every day. I love myself as a person, I think I am hilarious, and caring, and fun, and unique. I also think I have a great ass which I know how to move, and some of my other curves aren’t too tame either. But I also look in the mirror and find plenty of flaws and unhappiness in some of my body parts. I do my best to embrace my body as it is, and sometimes I can, but lets be honest. We can say we love our legs until we’re blue in the face, but it doesn’t mean we love them every day. So I don’t have a specific size I want to be, I just want to feel good about myself as much as possible, and to know that I worked hard for it in a healthy way. That is something to be proud of.

So let me know your goals, and your challenges, and your struggles, I’d love to chat! This is an open space to express any feelings, whether you’re having a good day or bad day. Ears are open :)

I did it :)

I restarted Phase 2 today! 

Fortunately, my weight was still 151.2, so even though I’ve had zero control, have seriously slacked on fruits and veggies, and havent worked out in over 2 weeks, and I’ve been feeling horrible about the way I look, I apparently haven’t gained.

I did however lose some serious stamina and endurance, that workout was a killer today. But I’m super proud of myself for starting again today. I need to regain focus on myself, I lost it there for a while. 

Sorry I’ve been slackin’

I’ve had a cold for the past two weeks that wont go away, so I’ve only worked out maybe 4 times during it. Its just too hard to work out when you can barely breathe. But I’m not giving up yet- don’t worry =)